You’re not going to believe this. It kinda freaked me out as it started happening to me, but after I let it pass and experienced the after-effects, I was sold.
In case I haven’t said it before in my posts, I meditate a lot. 30 minutes every morning and sometimes an hour in the evenings. Sometimes two or three hours in the evenings. It all depends on what I’m doing that day, how I’m feeling, and if I feel that I need it or could release something from it.
Meditation for me is a release. Its an energetic, emotional, release. And with these shakey meditations, I’m discovering its a nervous (as in nerves) release as well.
So what happened?
For the past few years or so (at least) I’ve had small twitches happen all over my body. A neurologist called them “benign fasiculations” when I went in to try and get some information on what the fuck was happening to me. Well, they’re definitely not fucking benign or I wouldn’t be coming in to see a doctor! Anyway…they weren’t causing me any pain or anything, and just kinda came and went so I didn’t think they were that serious…and figured eventually they will go away.
And they have…kind of. In my meditations (which if I haven’t written a good post about yet, I’ll do that) I release what I believe to be emotional energy that is stored in the body. In a (very small) nutshell, by focusing on the part of my body that is feeling some discomfort, I can release the negative emotion and feel it fizzle out. Crazy, right?
Anyway so once I started doing that over and over and over day after day after day, I started to feel different on a regular day to day, hour to hour, basis. And my “benign” fasiculations have greatly calmed down and stopped.
Then I got into Wim Hof
And while I would do a 10-minute Wim Hof breathing exercise, I noticed that my right forearm would twitch, just like the fasiculations I used to have. This became part of my morning routine, wake up, Wim Hof for 10 minutes, meditate for 30 minutes. Then one day I decided to try something new.
I decided to try and “let” my arm twitch. I thought, “if it wants to twitch, let it twitch.” I figured if there was energy there that wanted to get out then I should let it the fuck out.
And I DID! And it WORKED!
As I lay there, I “gave” my right arm more energy. The muscle just on the inside of my elbow started to twitch. Soon my bicep was spazzing and then my whole arm was shaking. It was all under my control. I wasn’t “controlling” or “making” the spasms happen. But I could stop them at any moment. I just didn’t want to. I wanted to let it run its course. (This idea, of letting uncomfortable things run their course, is soooooooooo important. In general, in life. Don’t forget it.)
Anyway so this was just my right arm…but soon my left leg started to tingle…and I felt a couple fasiculations (twitches) there. So again, I “gave” my leg more energy. I relaxed and let it do its thing. First my calf and foot were twitching, but soon my entire left leg was shaking and spazzing.
If someone walked into my room at that point, they would probably think I was having a seizure or something.
I don’t know how long it lasted. Maybe a few minutes. But when it was over….man…I felt so incredibly relaxed. Especially in my right arm and left leg.
Trauma gets stored in the body.
Both physical and emotional trauma get stored in the body. The funny thing was, after this meditation had passed, I realized two things.
- In second grade, I broke my right wrist.
- Just over a year ago, I sprained my left ankle.
NO WONDER they were spasming. Really really crazy interesting stuff here.
Fast Forward A Week or Two
Then I get this meditation. (Read that <- article if you haven’t yet.) Basically…my whole body was convulsing/seizing/spasming. Again, if anyone had walked into the room they would think I’m having a seizure and call 911. But again just like before, its totally under my control and I want to let it happen. I want to let out whatever needs to be let out.
And after these meditations, I feel so so so relaxed. It. Is. Crazy. You probably think I’m nuts, and that’s just fine. If you’re one of the few who don’t, shoot me a message. Email me or jump in Facebook or new Discord community to connect, and let me know your thoughts, and maybe, if you’ve experienced anything similar.